Fair Copy, Thomas Merton Poem, 2007
Patience is the one requirement of sustained creative survival: if the world has turned, it will also turn again.
Jan 17, ‘15
To date, 3 checks have not arrived in the mail and I’m feeling close to a state of near panic. I haven’t much of a clue as to what is happening, right now. Or why…. Nor have I been able to contact the person who owes me this money — though not for lack of trying, these past few weeks.
It’s as if this person has vanished into thin air. Or, perhaps, even more bizarre a feeling, never existed….
This money I need to run my life as I have been through almost 20 years of working for this person.
I’m behind in my rent and my utility bills.
I feel dazed, shocked and numb — mortally wounded…. As a person feels when sudden death has occurred to someone close in one’s life….
This all is hard to Accept.
I feel lost and in the shadow of Death.
In the Here and Now, this is where I am.
My hope: “If the world has turned, it will turn again.”