Dec 31, ‘12
I was up early this morning to listen to a friend’s radio program on my computer. He has a radio program every other Monday morning on a public radio station on Cape Cod. He played 3 hours of Bob Dylan or tunes written by Bob Dylan.
It was a wonderful way to start the day.
I worked on one of my paintings for 2 hours and then, feeling restless, I loaded 4 boxes of already packed stuff from my late last night packing session into the car and set off for my new address. Six minutes later, I was there….
The snow underfoot and the bitter cold add a drag factor to loading and unloading. I’m guessing that it takes 25 – 30% more energy to move house in the winter than it does any other month.
Mentally comparing the new place to the old, I feel a sense of dismay – a bitch-slapping Reality Check…. I find it hard to imagine myself living anywhere but where I am and have been these past 5 years and hoped to be for 5 more. Since the Notice to Vacate, I feel I’ve arrived at a state of being 50% Accepting, 50% Resentful, so at least there’s balance. Resentment is down 99% from Dec 12 to today.
So, I took the first step today in a thousand steps of Moving; hauled those boxes from the car, across the snow to the house & deposited stuff in the kitchen and bathroom and the closet in the smallest bedroom. I took stock of things I need to do — wipe down cupboards with powerful cleaner even though they seem clean, apply contact paper – erase the cooties of Other People, chase out any lingering ghosts, make it mine….
I came home, had lunch worked on a painting for a few hours then packed up more stuff. This time I packed up most all my houseplants, including my big cactus, Spike. I wrapped bubble wrap around the houseplants, loosely, hoping to keep them somewhat warm on the trip across town. Spike is quite spiny, so I wrapped him in a shawl.
They all seemed to be happy to arrive in their new home with their sunny new spot.
In the Now of New Year’s eve, I’m betwixt and between 2 homes. One door closing, another door opening…. I hope it’s UP from here for all of us who are DOWN. I’m hoping for a peaceful , prosperous and healthy New Year for Me and Mine and You All!